Vomiting

Up until yesterday I've been surviving my first trimester with mild to severe nausea, depending on the day. But I'd yet to visit the toilet to vomit. Yesterday morning at about 5:00 AM I woke up with the worst nausea I'd had. Thinking I needed to put something in my stomach (this usually helps), I went downstairs and forced down a few raspberries, apple slices, and saltine crackers. They all came back up again in about 10 minutes. Unfortunately  I was standing by the sink at the time and didn't have time to make it to the toilet - so I vomited everything up in the sink (which proceeded to get clogged up). After vomiting I had about 5-10 minutes of absolutely no nausea, as well as a burst of energy. So I cleaned up the sink and headed to bed. About an hour later, more vomiting. This time Kyle woke up and helped by rubbing my back and just helping me not feel so alone. This proceeded throughout the morning until around noon. I began to get worried that I wasn't keeping fluids down. The rule is 24 hours ... if you can't keep anything down for that amount of time, you have to go get fluids at the hospital.

Sometime in the early afternoon I was finally able to keep sips of ginger-ale down, as well as 2 saltine crackers. I kept sipping fluids throughout the afternoon and, despite a few more urges to vomit, kept everything down. The irony is, as much as I hate vomiting (and I HATE vomiting), I almost wanted to in the afternoon because I knew that the misery would be followed by a solid 10 minutes or so of relief. But my desire to stay out of the hospital was stronger, I suppose, and I kept everything down after that.

Yesterday was hard. I finally admitted to myself (after a conversation with my mom) that I just don't enjoy being pregnant. Maybe I will in a week or two - but right now, I just do not enjoy it. I also tried letting go of the guilt that I'm doing something wrong and that's what is making me sick. I know better than that (everything I read says that it has to do with hormones, and that each woman and each pregnancy is different). I also finally broke down and let Kyle buy me some Unisom to take with my B6. It is a sleep aid that can be used for nausea and is given the okay to use during pregnancy. I've been so adamant about not using drugs during pregnancy. But to be honest, I was more than excited to give it a try yesterday afternoon. I felt like I was going to die and simply wanted relief.

I don't think the Unisom helped my nausea yesterday very much, but it did make me very tired and I slept most of the afternoon and into the night. I woke-up feeling hungry and mostly nausea-free. I took another Unisom this AM (half a tablet) and am feeling okay. Not completely nausea-free ... but I'm able to get up, move around, and eat. I ate some oatmeal in the morning, as well as some Cheerios. The only problem is is that it makes me sleepy. But at this point, I'll take sleepiness over feeling like dying. We'll see how long it works.